A day in the life of an Army Wife

In 2.7 seconds my whole day went from amazing to horrible.
Alex just called and said that he cant come off base this weekend because a SGT found his cell and mp3 player underneath his pillow today. It sent him to red stat which means no leaving base at all, like not even for the day. I could go there to see him, if we had the money to pay for a can there and back, but we dont. Im so upset, im in tears right now. I know that this is nothing compared to whats to come in the future and I keep telling myself its not like I just found out his deployment has been extended or something but I cant help but be upset still. Today was going SO good and ofcourse OFCOURSE something has to happen to make it suck. Im trying to be stronger than this, I hate crying, I barely said two words when I was on the phone with him because I knew if I tried to talk I would burst out into tears and I didnt want him to know how upset I was. I dont think I would be this upset normally, but sunday is my birthday and I really am not looking forward to a birthday spent alone. Blah Blah Blah. Oh well at least next weekend is a 4 day weekend. This blows.

  Eating healthier is definitely my biggest struggle right now. I am addicted to junk and unhealthy foods (Mostly CARBS!) I decided that I am going to start with tracking everything I put into my mouth, I am on a 1500 calorie a day diet but I’m going to try to stay at or around 1200. I am doing strength training 3 days a week and at least a half an hour of cardio every day. I’m doing it on my own, (well I’m using the Internets resources) because I don’t have the money for a gym membership let alone a personal trainer. One thing I am doing different is I’m mostly only drinking water. I have a 2 liter of soda but I only take one sip of it every morning because I hate taking pills and the carbonation of the soda makes it easier for me to take my vitamins in the morning. I hate the fact that health food is 10Xs more expensive than unhealthy food. It makes it so hard for people who really want to get healthy! I wish they would open a “McHealth” Like McDonalds but with health food, and they need to have a dollar menu too lol. Yesterday I had “my plan” well my plan didn’t really work but it didn’t necessarily fail either. I said I was going to take a pill and go to sleep and then wake up at 8. Well I did take the sleeping pill and I did go to sleep around 2 which wasn’t bad, it was a weird kind of sleep though. Like I felt half awake throughout the whole thing. Lately I’ve been having some really Fu*ked up dreams. Like not really nightmares, but they might as well be. Anyways back to my plan, so I didn’t wake up at 8 am but I did wake up at 10 am which is a helluva lot better then the 8 pm schedule I was on. I did my cardio and my strength training AND I ate 3 square meals! Breakfast, Lunch & Dinner! I am so proud of myself, normally I just eat little bits of crap food here and there, but not today, today I ate a full breakfast, a full lunch and a full dinner AND I stayed UNDER my calories, carbs, fat, and protein allowed for the day! Today was one of the better days ive had in a long time. I’m just happy, generally speaking. There’s a lot more I want to write about but a lot of it is stuff that I will end up stressing about and I don’t want to come down from this high just yet. Its to good.